Since my last post in February, it would appear that I have not taken interest in genealogy, historical and anthropological studies — however, this is the farthest from the truth. On the contrary, I am almost studying daily, reading books on history, laws, listening and watching historical research videos and adding to my collection of books and resources. In fact, my own genealogy has proven my initial claim that I do indeed come from Amerindian Carib ancestors. Further research in my mother’s father’s lineage proved that I come from French European Basque royalty (Giraud du Poyet, Giraud du Poyet d’Orzon, Giraud du Poyet de Crezol (Cursolle) Giraud du Poyet de la Charbonniere). ⚜️ Quite remarkably, the direct Giraud – Girault lineage kept my direct descendants from slavery on the island of Guadeloupe resulting in the Giraud du Poyet to lose his inheritance and family name (Giraud du Poyet to Girault). While other ancestors who married into the Girault bloodline where engrossed in slavery, code noir, miscegenation laws  between ‘whites’ and mulattos, brown and african blood until the 1800s.

There has been great and lengthy research done by history gurus like Kurimeo Ahau, Dr. Alim Bey, Dane Calloway, Aseer the Duke of Tiers, and the anonymous researcher from I am so thankful for these brothers for their life work helping to prove and shed light on our remarkable history around this planet! First let me say I am not an “Out of Africa” Pan-Africanist, nor Moor, nor Aboriginal, or African-American (ADOS) ideologist —I set out to only learn the truth! None of these labels keep me in any box from learning the truth or exploring theories that prove life on this planet and life beyond earth which connects our ancient ancestors to the stars!

Let me also state that “if” I choose Moorish doctrine or identity or Aboriginal Autochthonic identity that I personally see them as the same with a common core or nucleus being the original autochthonous Mitochondrial DNA that the so called ‘black’ woman today possesses. My initial goal and reasoning stemmed and started at the age of 16 when I vowed to “learn the truth” and took that vow to read and find proof and confirmation to that which I already knew within! In conclusion, I also see and bare witness that there is an inherent problem when dealing with the legality of birthright and land in this country and ‘why’ Moorish doctrine is so important when claiming land and identity — due to the way in which reclassified “white” Europeans usurped land and resources in America and in Europe. This is not conjecture but fact!

Since this Covid-19 Lockdown, I started reading books (listening on audiobook) as well on my libby app through eBooks from my local library. It first started as a supplement to my Creative Writing course to add to my knowledge of poetry, novels, and other creative writing— authors I wanted to connect with in literature. As protests (especially in Portland, Oregon) escalated my gaze turned toward ‘understanding’ White Supremacy (White Fragility) and racism in America! This has been a daunting task! Emotionally, intellectually and spiritually —understanding and researching racism is difficult on the mind, body, and spirit! Racism is a mental illness and can devour the attention and occupy the spirit!

What I’m Currently Reading!

The Color of Law Audiobook
The Color of Law. A Forgotten History of How Our Government Segregated America.Richard Rothstein.

I am currently ‘reading’ the Color of Law book and listening to the Audio version! Although it is a must read and should be on your book shelf, it will piss you off. It will infuriate you and leave you screaming that America owes its ‘Black’ citizens reparations for the 400 years of slavery, followed by its reconstruction (redistribution of their authochthonic Indigenous land), and the subsequent years (to date!) of forced segregation, migration, and imposed poverty which was mandated by laws, public and state policy.

Gentrification is but the fruit of this legal apartheid in America; it is a willful act of collusion in which federal, state, grassroots efforts, and institutional bodies work together to ensure the legacy of white supremacy thrives. White privilege is not coincidence to some long time ago “I’m not responsible for the slavery of your people” dismissal — it is a thriving act of collusion built in and on top of a false and misrepresented identity abetted hierarchal system to ensure wealth of one race over another. Then blames the ‘victim’ (or prisoners of war) for years of oppressive genocide without regard to personal responsibility in its willful compliance and silence.

In my creative writing course, I addressed these issues and wrote the most painful poetry about the George Floyd, Breonna Taylor martyrs then apologized for speaking my truth! I was so uncomfortable in facing my caucasian Professor and peers that I withheld my poetry and even writing my poetry for weeks risking failure! Ironically the events, the protests, the fires were metaphors for the generations of pain and our end of complacency in American society. But as I looked closer into “The Why” I even felt so uncomfortable speaking my truth that it almost caused physical and mental illness I was forced to examine the system of White Supremacy and Racism, its root causes and its detrimental effect on the mental, emotional and spiritual health and wellbeing on ‘African Americans.’

In my research I came upon a video from Dr. Joy DeGruy! I sat on my sofa and for hours absorbed the brilliance of this sociologist- -not only that she was right here in Portland having taught at Portland State University! But when I looked on my local library staff picks for study “Black Lives Matter” “Antiracist books” that coined almost all companies chiming in on this branded retribution, her books were buried under others that spoke less to the mental effects of this oppressive biased system than its historical recounts!

Me and White Supremacy
Me and White Supremacy: Combat Racism, Change the World, and Become a Good Ancestor is a book by Layla Saad published on January 28, 2020.

Why wouldn’t a local scholar who put in over  12 years of academic research receive promotion in her local towns library? It seemed strange to me! While I have and will share ebooks on the subject of White Supremacy, Racism and inequality non fiction I have yet to get a copy of DeGury’s book in ebook form or in print from my local library. I will instead order one from Amazon or her website to add to my collection!

Post Traumatic Slave Syndrome
Post Traumatic Slave Syndrome: America’s Legacy of Enduring Injury and Healing (PTSS) is a 2005 theoretical work by Dr. Joy DeGruy.

I’m going to share some of the books I’ve ‘read’ and reading until July 30! Then I’m taking an intensive yoga and fasting program ❤️ to release this trauma.

Reading Now!- more books

The Color of Law Book
The Color of Law. A Forgotten History of How Our Government Segregated America.
White Fragility Books
White Fragility: Why It’s So Hard for White People to Talk About Racism is a 2018 book written by Robin DiAngelo
So you want to talk about race book
So You Want to Talk About Race is a 2018 non-fiction book by Ijeoma Oluo.
White Rage Book
How We Fight White Supremacy: A Field Guide to Black Resistance
Book by Akiba Solomon and Kenrya Rankin.
White Rage Book, The Unspoken Truth of Our Racial Divide. Carol Anderson.

Burden Books and Ta-Nehisi Coates Books
Between the World and Me is a 2015 nonfiction book written by Ta-Nehisi Coates and published by Spiegel & Grau.
The Burden: African Americans and the Enduring Impact of Slavery.

On Hold to Read

The Invention of the White Race book
The Invention of the White Race Book by Theodore W. Allen.
Argues that before the 18th century, there was neither a white nor any other colour-determined race in North America. Allen traces the history of plantations and slavery to show that it was the degradation of African-bonded labourers into slaves that produced racism based on colour.

The Unapologetic Guide to Black Mental Health: Navigate an Unequal System, Learn Tools for Emotional Wellness, and Get the Help You Deserve Book by Rheeda Walker.
Medical Apartheid Book by Harriet A. Washington.
Reconstruction: America’s Unfinished Revolution, 1863-1877 Book by Eric Foner.
Biased: Uncovering the Hidden Prejudice That Shapes What We See, Think, and Do Book by Jennifer Eberhardt.

I hope this adds to your professional and private research library and book reading list. I will be adding a few more articles this month in closing prior to my Summer hiatus. Until then fellow researchers, genealogist and free thinkers!

In Rising and InLove,


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